'Shows the push and pull of motherhood...I was absolutely glued to it' Emma Gannon

What if the thing you most wanted feels nothing like you expected?

A Grazia Hot Debut

'A richly textured novel showing the push and pull of motherhood, career identity and what it means to be a woman with multiple sides ... I was absolutely glued to it' Emma Gannon, bestselling author of Olive

After five exhilarating years in New York, Stevie has a successful career and a glamorous social life. But what she most wants is a baby, an aspiration that feels impossible given that she is single, thirty-eight and living in a tiny apartment in Manhattan, far away from most of her family in England.

Determined to become a mother, Stevie returns to London and has a baby on her own. When she gives birth to Ash, she finds motherhood painfully at odds with her former life and her expectations. She begins to wonder if having a child was a mistake - and what she might be willing to do to escape. As she struggles with what her future might hold, revelations from the past change everything she believed about family and love.

'A daring, compelling novel' Cosmopolitan
'An unflinching look at both work-as-identity and modern parenting' Grazia
'A taboo-busting tale' Harper's Bazaar
'Debuts don't come any hotter... Utterly compelling' Irish Independent
'By turns shocking and tender' Metro
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